"Deja vu just ain't what it used to be ..."

[urbanamazon]

How come every time I express concern for a negative-sounding entry, I get my head bitten off and handed to me so I look like a total idiot? Everyone's always ranting about the world being a bad place or personal depression or problems that they can't do anything about, but as soon as I try and offer some light, or a shoulder, or even a blunt opinion, I'm attacked.

Yes, we're all hypocrites, I realize that.

Maybe it's all my problem and I should just shut up and look the other way. Sorry, but I don't think I can do that. I can't change my gut instinct of wanting to make life better for other people without overly thinking it over.

I'm just the way I am. I don't really want to change anyone else, either. I don't have that right. No one does.

Forgive me for losing to anger
Forgive me for being who I am
Forgive me for caring for a stranger
Forgive me for giving a damn

I posted that a while ago, and it's coming back to haunt me again. Maybe I should just become an emotionless icon, a bunch of words that might make sense, but doesn't really care.

I feel like giving up on this whole fucking livejournal thing. If all of my attempts for caring about people are going to end up like this, then what's the point?

Comments

[korus.livejournal.com]

Don't feel too bad, babe. You can't please everyone...and some people don't really want to feel better.

...but I hope you do. Because your concern for others is a virtue, whether others accept it or not. And I value it...it's one of your most beautiful qualities.

I hope you're feeling better by the time you read this. Don't let those nihilists get to you.

[chowy-bounce.livejournal.com]

i love your concern. its a truely terrific quality. so don't worry. and its true that if a person doesn't want to be helped that you can't help them no matter how hard you try. so no worries mate. o_^

*sigh* Shouldn't it be spelt 'nighilists'? Or does that mean something else?

[kouryou.livejournal.com]

Actually, I'm in a very good mood right now. Call me when you can, but I'll be *home* by perhaps eight or so tonight.